Oh oh... I'm in the school library now. Gonna study till late again... TEST's ON THURSDAY!!! Really wanna do well for it. Happy with my level of motivation to study, as compared to last week which was the most unfruitful one since school started. I shall not give in to my flesh so often!!!

Tmr's a CRAZY crazy day. Totally. In fact the next 2 months are CRAZY. God, please give me new strength every day!!! More than just strength, the wisdom to do things right...

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"My God reigns... His love will never fail me... My God reigns... He's ruling over all..."

This song has been stuck in my head since Sunday and it occasionally brings tears to my eyes when I sing it silently wherever I travel. So touched by God~ It's a reminder to me that God is in control over every situation and that all things will work together for the good of those who love Him.

AMEN!!!

Ohhh... I'm so happy in my heart even in the midst of crazy days. :)!

Have you heard of one of the latest news regarding AMD? It stands for Advance Medical Directive. It's a form which a person signs in advance to disallow any form of artificial methods to sustain life should the person becomes terminally ill (no more cure!) and can't make rational decisions anymore. 

Do you remember Terri Schiavo? The woman who had a sudden stroke and  cardiac arrest out of the blue, which led her to being dependent on machines for her survival. She was diagnosed as being 'brain dead' by 2 doctors. Her being on machines lasted for 15 years. The problem was...

For 5 years, her husband and her parents had a huge conflict of interests. Her husband wanted the tubes removed to end her suffering but her parents insisted that she was a devout Catholic who wouldn't agree on Euthanasia.

This situation was brought to court. Now, on top of the ethical issues, they had the legal issues to deal with.

Who was right? If Terri could talk, what would she want? Who then should be the final decision maker?

THIS CASE MADE ME HAVE TO WRITE A 3000-WORD ESSAY WHICH I HAVE TO SUBMIT IN 2 WEEKS' TIME. I so wish Terri had signed the AMD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So now, you can see that the AMD is a very powerful form. :)

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My GOD reigns!
His love will NEVER fail me
My GOD reigns!
He's ruling over ALL

In ALL my life
In EVERY situation
I KNOW!
My GOD is greater!!!
My GOD is over ALL...

AMEN!!!

Bringing a little more life into the lyrics hehehe... :)

Though it can be tiring juggling school, music (orchestra, quartet, piano) and church, I'm really happy doing what I'm doing. The next 2 months will be very trying for me as I'll be doing many new things which I haven't done before in my SHORT 21 2/3 years. =P

I feel the resistance, sometimes it weighs me down. I think it's a good sign? Meaning a breakthrough is nearing. That is, if I persevere.(Analogically speaking, I'm in the LABOUR phase now. =P)

*Sigh...* I wish I know what to do/say when situations are presented to me. But sometimes I don't... :( I just wanna give God my best... But I guess  my best isn't enough sometimes... :(

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I wanna watch a MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Last night was a lovely night. :) Cos it was raining heavily and I was safe and snug at home! and was alone playing piano. :) Perfect!!!

I love rainy days cos it kinda slow things down and it's therapeutic just watching the rain fall. :)

I love rollerblading in the rain too, carelessly getting drenched!!!!! And laughing while rolling away wahaha. I know only Cai would do that with me. :) And she might even just stop and laugh at me if I fall down wahaha... =X

But I still don't understand why the rain is dirty? As what most people would think... Unless you're talking about acidic rain, which obviously is harmful. But generally "Singapore's" rain is ok? So what makes the rain dirty?

Haha... Maybe it sounds stupid, but I am just curious.

 

Hey guys,

Please pray for me. Kinda choked up with lots of commitment...

1) Pray for strength, cos I'm mentally tired recently
2) For God to expand my capacity that I will not crumble easily under pressure

Thanks... I wanna cry now.................

:'(

Laid down my head to sleep last night while listening to songs from Mamma Mia. I know they're not the most appropriate songs to listen to prior sleeping, but oh well... :)

Stretched my hand over my head to switch it off once I entered into a semi-conscious state. Ahhh... Now I was ready to sleep. My head was saturated with thoughts and plans for the next few days.

The moment I fell asleep, my body was jolted awake, quite violently such that my bed gave a creak. I was scared for a moment. I pulled my comforter up to my nose and fell asleep thereafter as if my body couldn't care less.

And the next thing I know...

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Guess what? ;)

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Anyway, today was just a BAD day. I had a strong urge to be alone. When that happens, I know something's coming up...

:(

It was quite strange too. After piano lesson, I had a 40-MINUTE talk with my teacher. 40!!!!! I was already wanting to leave cos I had to rush to church. But she just stood at the door, with her hand on the gate but not closing it.

I sensed that she had something more to say/ask so  I didn't rush off... True enough, one sentence led to another and we talked much from piano to relationships and everything in between. :)

Cool.

 

But still, I had a bad day.

REALLY mad at myself today for all my carelessness. Did 3 careless things in 1 day!  :( Blame it on myself and the many things YET to be done which are constantly screaming for my attention. :(

Sigh... Seriously.........................

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Happy that I could go for chc orchestra today! Really missed playing with them~~~ Don't know why there was this joy in my heart when I saw some of them. =)! 

Glad that the song for our upcoming performance is slowly taking form. Phew... :)

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I'm very touched and encouraged by my connect group when I clearly see how God has slowly transformed some of their lives. It's really amazing.

It was very heartwarming to receive a call from a young member sounding so excited to share about how God has healed him...

And another new member called to tell me that his friend is joining us this Friday for THE EDGE. It's something quite "big" as he always chose to be alone and didn't like to talk much. Thank God that somehow we are able to connect.

("Member" sounds so distant, wrote that for simplicity. They are in fact special people.)

It shows that whatever effort we sow into God's kingdom, it is NEVER wasted. It's all these little things that motivate me to keep running the race.

:)

http://www.vpa.nie.edu.sg/music/kelly/index.htm

When I saw the last sentence of the 6th paragraph, my heart leapt and stopped for a split second. I didn't realise the significance of playing for Asia Conference... Now I know... But honestly, it hasn't sunk into my heart. Maybe cos I haven't been attending rehearsals regularly... :(

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Suddenly my to-do list seems to be flooded with so many tasks... A flood comes overnight and mass destruction is caused by lack of preparation. So the next thing to do is to PLAN and have a good time management...

And the next best thing to do is to actually DO those stuff.

Talking to myself. :)

I can feel the stretch, it's causing friction.

Woke up exceptionally early today on a Saturday morning hehe. Had a dreamy night so didn't have a good rest.

Anyway................

Anatomy test result is OUT! Very happy with it cos it's way beyond my expectation. Thank GOD for that. :)

PhyZzzzzzio test was quite tough so I'm not looking forward to seeing the result. :(

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Good news!!! (for myself)

I bought MAMMA MIA SOUNDTRACK CD. :)

Saw it at school's bazaar and I got all excited (as usual la), I told the auntie to reserve for me (cos it was the LAST one) while I took a shuttle bus to draw $$$ and rushed back! Lol...

NICE! :)

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As for NUSSO, I volunteered to help out in the busking event happening soon. Will be contacting people here and there and can get to learn the "behind the scenes" of organising the gigs and all... Wow. Excited!

Will be involved in a quartet performance too, next week is our first practise... Hopefully I can manage the pieces... ARGH BUT I STILL CAN'T FIND MY APPLICATION FORM!!!!!!!!!

I am SURE I put it in my file!!!!!!! But now it's GONE! :(

Hmmm... Received an email from a Wind quartet... They are looking for cellists to play the bassoon part cos they can't find bassoonists...

Don't know if I should try... Lest I spoil the whole quartet. =X

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Woo... CG meeting was great! WOW... The best ever so far for W472 hehehe.

It's about going back again and again to our FIRST love with God... To simply enjoying His presence and asking NOTHING in return...

:)

Ohh I'm feeling jumpy in my heart!

(^;^)v

I am QUITE mad at myself. I think I have some form of dementia...

Sunday - Forgot to bring HP out
Monday - Forgot to bring wallet + HP went FLAT...
Today - Forgot to bring HP + lost a form...

Argh.............

Think my mind's in a disarray...

PHYSIO test is TMR... Stayed back in school to study just now... Didn't have my HP so I lost track of time, only to discover I studied for 3 hours.

Wow COol.... School is so nice to study at night. =) So tempted to just stay overnight in school to save the hassle of travelling...

And the first thing I wanna do on the way home was to watch MAMMA MIA... :(

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I wanna get a handphone, a printer and...

a tattoo. :)

Guess what???

I just watched MAMMA MIA AGAIN!!!! The show just gets better and gosh I laughed at the same thing again!!! Haha. This time I watched it with a friend and it was a treat hehe.

AND I'D LIKE TO WATCH IT AGAIN!!!!!!!

The entire show just made me very very happy watching it hahaha. Audience today was fantastic, some of us sang together with the songs and we laughed spontaneous together. Lol... 

Everyone should watch it!

+ I really like the Starhub advertisement cos the main actor (the guy who was woken up by the white dog in the 1st scene) is near perfect looking and I like his style.

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I was very encouraged today when a friend (you know who) told me that he felt better today after cg meeting. It may be just a small statement but to me it meant a lot.

I was just praying for him last night about some stuff cos he's been feeling heavy in the spirit for some time... So to hear that from him the very next day, really touched my heart.

It meant that God was in my room when I prayed in the middle of last night.

It meant that God heard every word that I spoke and He cares so much as to answer my prayer for somebody else.

It meant that God also heard my prayers for my family members and 2 others...

Actually, something funny happened while I prayed about a particular situation. I told God that I didn't know why things happened this way and He brought back a memory probably 2 months + ago when I prayed for God to INTERVENE in that situation.

So YES... He INTERVENED!!! Now I know why things happened 'this' way. I found it funny and I actually laughed a bit.. It was like "God.........~~~ Was that how you INTERVENED????" Hahaha.

Oh well, His ways are ALWAYS HIGHER than ours. And yes, I'm assured that all things will work out for the good of those who love Him.

 

Kor's finally (officially) married yesterday!!! Why I said "official" is cos I have seen them as husband and wife long ago hehe. So he told me to at least act excited that they are married hahahaha...

It was a really looooong day... But quite an experience. ;)

Stayed over at Shirley's house the day before... Feeling cranky at 1am~ Manifesting my love for colours wahaha...

Wahaha, safely inside while the siong dis were trapped outside...

 

@ The Legends @ Fort Canning Park with the man of the day

Jeff's family from Hong Kong

Jeff + Shirley = Mr and Mrs Mak!

 

Taking a break in the bride's room after everything... Phew~

 

Tired but still wanna zi lian! (+ thinking of Anatomy test the next day...)

Post wedding celebration @ Manhatten Fish Market

Thank God that everything went smoothly! Glad that everyone enjoyed themselves =)

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Ponned 2 lectures today cos I was too tired. So I just went for Anat test... It was easier than I thought but still made a few mistakes... Sigh...

Physiology test next week...

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Felt quite bad tonight for making my dad angry cos of what I said... So I smsed him...

Me: Sorry for what I said. =(

Him: It's ok?

I don't know why he put a "?" but I guess it's ok. :)

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I really wanna thank God for teaching me so much these few weeks, for opening my eyes to my own mistakes and wrongdoings.

It's very important to get time off for self-reflection and it's good to know that we are not always right. Well, I guess everyone knows that but few can accept that.